New life, new enviroment and new frens...

I have been here for like two months already if i am not mistaken.
Gone through lots...and lots of stuff starting from laughter to tears....lots of tears...

I once thought i am a strong , tough and unemotional.
When i first came here, it proves that i am wrong. Drop dead wrong,

Life for the first few weeks here sucks....i mean yeah really very extremely sucky that could make you cry in second. But not just me, everybody has the same experiance here.
Adapting to a totally new enviroment is just the hardest thing to do for the moment being .
Especially when i missed home alot.

However, there are still friends around here who at least gave me so hope to go on here.
still, life isn't easy when u have to go through the seperation after a few weeks bonding here.
A few week bonding is like for years here which i do not know why =.=
when amy left for JPA, thats the one and only moment which i could cry because of her.......
Emotion gone WILD here......

u can laugh , emo, felt lonely, frustrated or go hyper in any moment . Cannot even blame my PMS here =.=

Although life is hard here, i learnt a lot here.
It does changed me a bit even for a short moment here.
I do admit the facilities and spaces around here is more than average but ignore the cleanliness =.=
and the lecturers here are superb =) better than tuition teachers in KL haha....
i enjoyed learning here and enjoyed getting the knowledge i gained here just that the syallabus is is bloody fast and everyday i am chasing it =.=

my maths has worsen as i paid too much attention to my "favourite subject" BIOLOGY here =)

UPS is coming and i will be home!!!!! XD

=.=

ok...i know this blog is dead...thats because i am partially dead too =)

for this few months, nothing really speacial happen except the results day and the "money" giving day =)

i don't actually know how ppl survie at home without working or studying, kinda torturing.

days flew right in ur eyes liek nobody business...and its april now 0.O

yeah, the goals after spm vanished (the diet plan). coz i do love food very much XD

but i will still try to control before the comdition worsen XD

interview is next monday......3 more days left?

i just hope that i will meet a good panel that will take it easy on me XD

partial of me do hope that i could get the scholarships too so that my mummy will jumpo over the moon and stop worrying bout money and my future =)
just a smile form her face will make everything worthy =)

=.= so, i really hope my dear god will bless me =)

=.=

oh...now i just feel like abandoning my blog,
co i dun feel any interesting happen to me anyway...
i was wif my computer since this morning...
finding for scholarships and busy filling all the application forms,
haiz , hope that at least i will get one,
but interviews will be so scary for me =.=

i wan to study =.=
felt useless at home.
although i did many stuff....

Work...

Working is something that nobody can run away with it.

It is one of the human's responsibility to survive and appreciate the life given by the god and our own parents.

Work can be fun or gruesome.

I do hope with all my heart that my future work will be fun and worth doing it for my whole life.

I am working part time for the moment being.

It truly made me learn that it is very important to find the work you truly love.

yeah, with passion doing it everysingle day.




haiz, today's work was scary. the one who work with me at the primary level took leave =.=

i was working all alone at that level. In the afternoon, it was okay. I can still handle it.





But....





after 8, 0.o ppl just kept on rushing in TOGETHER ( =.= they dun bother coming other time)

i almost fainted....haiz, working like a robot is not a fun thing to do .

I am just glad that my senior who is beside me helped me out. Even the boss came to help =)

=.=

the day finally ended. Phiew......



and holiday for the next week!

i am preparing for the CNY wif my mummy since last week.

i knew what she bought and i help out a lot.

Thats why i kinda anticipated for the CNY this year.

hope it will be fun =)



Happy chinese new year yeah everybody!

to huicin who is in london too!

i am 18 =)

i am officially 18 today.
my mum wanted to surprise me with a durian birthday cake ,
but she failed,
and i have to get the cake from the shop myself....
wat a surprise.....

i was working the whole day today in Kumon.
My first ever birthday present today was from a kid in Kumon named farn ern.
He has the same birthday as me and brought me some snacks as present.
He remembered my birthday =)
It was so sweet and touching =)
i wanted to take his picture but i was busy working =)
i shall find a chance to take his pic next time XD

my birthday wishes for this year?
PLs god....let me had full A plus this year so that i can have scholarships for m,y studies.
=.= i hate seeing my parents worrying bout money =.=
haiz...

=(

Why she have to be like this....
i love her so much but it seems that she is always dissatisfied.
i am no superman or steel woman.
i am a normal human beings who have FEELINGS.
WORDS can kill a person. mentally.
The wound deepen when it is from somebody that you deeply care about.

She thought she is the one and only person who understand me well
I dun think so ........

i just dunno why every time she brings up the word ,
my tears just fell out uncontrollable.
i could not really stand it.

the worst thing is .....
i cannot hate her.....=.=
or take revenge....

the only thing i could do is to keep quiet.......and really quiet........